i admit. i am undoubtably an inconsistent person, in all i do. at this point i want to study, then next time i dont want too, i want to blog, then a week later i want to play lan games, and it bothers me, how i am not able to supress it as it is.

according to my thorough analysis of this phenomena, this may be caused by my wide range of knowledge on things, specifically my capacity to do things, i can do photoshop, i can play dota, i can play cards, i can do manuals, i can text like there’s no tommorow, i can study like a geek, i can go to the mall and shop like a president’s son, i can go anywhere anytime without anone to stop me, i can lead, i can write, i can do play badminton, go swimming, i can do many things! and this causes my inconsistency to collaborate my mind on where to focus, how to focus, and when to focus, this may be a barrier on the things i should do..

Proirotizing, yes i have tried this, and worked for me for a span of time, but again, my inconsistency have but in and have stopped proiritizing and started to do things just by what i want to do..

This uncontrolled ongoing mind and body activity really bothers me to the point the scares me.. that i might bring this kind of attitude till the time i will work and grow old..

But hope is always there, as they say “there’s nothing constant in this world but CHANGE” !

God has plans for me.”, i know it!